Have you ever been in love?Horrible isn't it?It makes you so vulnerable.It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.You build up all these defenses,you build up a whole suit of armor,so that nothing can hurt you,then one stupid person,wanders into your stupid life..You give them a piece of you.They didn't ask for it,they did something dumb one day,like kiss you or smile at you,and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Do you know that feeling when the beating of you heart becomes so audible that you're consumed by the intensity of its pattern?You take a deep breath in and slowly let it out.You try to look forward but out of the corner of your eye,you can see them twiddling their thumbs.You wonder if they're thinking about you;about how close you are to them.Time stops and the movie in the background continues to play on silent.You want nothing more than to be able to grasp their empty hands and hold them within your own.But you're scared.Not of how the might react,but simply of making the first move.
You may call it a dream..
Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true..But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal,so reasonable,so attainable.You're always close enough to touch,but never quite close enough to hold and it's enough to break your heart...

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